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27th May
2010
written by Cullen Webb

I am on the brink of graduation. And although I will be an adult by default, I do not feel in the least bit like a man.

I realize that this may be simply because I know so little about what it means to be a man. But I cannot help but feel as though I have fallen behind in where I am supposed to be. There is so much that I never considered about “growing up.” Responsibility has a lot more to it than “do and don’t do”, or feeding Spot the family dog.

I am overwhelmed by who I am, where I am going and who I should be. I wish there was a big red “surrender” button that I could press and give God absolute control over my every thought, action and motive. In this way would I know what to do. But God has left it up to us, and this scares the living daylights out of me.

There is no “do over,” no spell check, no second chances. I have but one life, and the weight of its value is something I cannot comprehend.

Good thing there’s a manual God gave us.

Well, here’s a video that is supposed to be about dating. But my Youth group has been going through it and it appears to be more about manhood.

God bless you,
Cullen Webb

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  • Dave Karp

    I'm 52 years old and still learning about what it means to be a man.

    • http://www.NationPains.com Cullen Webb

      Heheh. Thanks Dave.

      However, is this a good thing or bad thing for me to know?

  • Michael Wedding

    Sorry this is going to be a little long but as I told you in church this morning, hopefully it will encourage you. You know God. I didn't. I knew about God but wasn't a Christian when I got out of college, was dating a girl that in all likelyhood would have married the next year when she graduated, and was looking for my first career job. I wondered what life was all about and that's when God stepped in. An old high school friend told me all about what Jesus did for her. Then I got stuck with the only Christian deputy in my first job and I came to know the Lord. The first verse God put in my heart to practice was to not be unequally yoked with an unbeliever and after a short time of realizing my girlfriend wasn't a believer, I began seperating from her and met Flo. And now you have come to know us and me. Married 25 years, 9 children…all of whom seem to be following the Lord so far, 26 years of a very happy career…..and yet it all started when I wasn't saved…I didn't know the Lord Jesus Christ. And yet God had a plan for me…in his foreknowledge, before I even knew it. He gave me more than I could ever have imagined and HIMSELF for me. I don't deserve it all….and yet HE has blessed me so. I have sinned so often and failed and yet….he has blessed me so. HIS grace and mercy….HIS plan for me, for my family. And now I am also blessed with having seen God select my two oldest with their life-long partners…in whom I am well-pleased. Yes, this time of your life (as I told you I told Josh) in wondering what your life will become, what career you will choose, what life-partner you will have is like labor pains…but when that child is born…as Scripture says…those labor pains are gone for the joy you will have in seeing what a gift God has given you. You know God….I didn't. And yet look what he did for me and gave me. I will be praying for you….and Amen to what Dave K. said…learning to be a man (Godly) will take all our life.

    • http://www.NationPains.com Cullen Webb

      Huge encouragement.

      On the inside I can have faith in what God has planned for me. But on the outside I am aching to put my plans and ambition to motion, but have no way of doing so.

      I guess I have to practice patience. Too bad I lack in that area.

      Thanks Mike.
      -Cullen

  • Woody Crosthwaite

    Trust me Cullen, you are FAR, FAR ahead of the pack bud! I know that maturity isn't relative or graded on a curve, but you are a true witness for Christ. Your open and tender heart and passion to serve the Lord have provided you with a STRONG foundation! Keep reading, studying and through the Spirit “doing” the Word. Your path will illuminate before you…”JUST” before you often, rather than far ahead as we'd like. I believe in you and your life inspires many, me included!

    • http://www.NationPains.com Cullen Webb

      Very true about it illuminating JUST before me. What I would give for a few years foresight….

      God bless you Woody.

      -Cullen

      P.S. I love the book you sent me.

  • http://www.NationPains.com Cullen Webb

    Very true about it illuminating JUST before me. What I would give for a few years foresight….

    God bless you Woody.

    -Cullen

    P.S. I love the book you sent me.